Thursday, January 30, 2014

What to do this time

Not being able to conceive children but really wanting them is an interesting (for lack fo a better word) situation. Ryan and I were married for 9 years before Abby joined our family. During those years without children we received a lot of advice from people, and a lot of questions. It is hard for people to understand how you can want something so much and not be doing every single thing possible to get it. Why weren't we doing in-vitro while at the same time trying to adopt (and using multiple agencies) and fostering kids and trying to adopt sibling groups through the state? The answer is, we didn't just want kids, we wanted "our" kids, the ones meant for us. And we prayed - multiple times every day to know what we needed to be doing to bring our children into our family. Through our prayers we knew we would have children, but we knew we had to wait. Do you have any idea how hard it is to just wait for what you want, to know that there is nothing you can do to speed up the process to get the thing you want so much? If you've been in a similar situation you probably do. But for those that don't, I'll tell you - it is crazy hard.
We've had Abby for almost 2 years now, and it has been awesome. We love her so much and are so grateful that we waited for her. So many things that we wanted to happen but didn't were answers to our prayers in getting "our" children into our family.
We still want more kids. We want Abby to have siblings and we want more little spirits in our home. So again we are faced with wondering what we should be doing to bring our children home. This time as I pray I'm not told to just wait. This time my answer has been to get the word out to as many people as possible. That's the reason I started an adoption facebook page. And for anyone that would like to help us get the word out I would so appreciate it, help us get the word out to as many people as possible, so when our baby is ready to come to us we will find each other. Thanks so much for any help you provide in helping us find our baby!

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